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Why is the world just one big problem to solve?

I cannot begin to tell you the endless amount of problems I seem to make for myself lately. Which as a result, seems to send my mood in a sky rocketing downfall. But sometimes, I am not entirely to blame. Shall I tell you why?

Things which happen in my day-to-day lifestyle, tend to make me quite upset. Today for example, was probably one of the most upsetting days for me and  for once it wasn’t me which had caused it.

I began to notice what type of world we live in.

I see it everyday, it is just some days I chose to ignore it. Doesn’t everyone?

The endless amount of people, so engrossed into their own lives (including myself).  Mothers and fathers  who are too busy on their phones to notice their children exploring and finding themselves. Men and women constantly oppressing each other, and setting stereotypes for the other to follow. Just today, whilst I was working- a man had asked me to explain to a young boy, no older than six, why flavoured lip balm was for girls. I simply couldn’t do it. I couldn’t look the boy in the eyes and tell him that he couldn’t get something his sister was getting simply because it was a belief that he couldn’t.

Why do we do that as a society? We ask children what they want to be when they grow up, but we set them rules and standards which they have to adhere to. This wasnt lip gloss, or lipstick it was lip balm. A coca-cola flavoured lip balm. But, so what if it was? At age 6 the mind is so open. He just wanted to be included with his sister.

Gender equality is just the tip of the iceberg of problems which we are choosing to ignore. Racial discrimination, environmental issues, wars and the list could continue to go on and on.

What bothers me is that when did it become so normal to be so self indulged? For once, I’d like to hear something good. Maybe it’s me just focusing on the negatives, but I just see a world where children are wishing their childhoods away, wanting to grow up without realising that experiencing childhood is what makes you do exactly that. Maybe they do so because they have parents which are too controlling or neglectful forcing them to grow up way earlier before their time.Or just maybe they actually have a perfect family, but society tells them they aren’t perfect. I see a world where women and men still aren’t equal in society, and people chose to view a feminist as a misandrist or misogynist. I see a world where even still, people are frowned upon because of their ethnicity or class. I see a world where countless numbers of animal species are becoming extinct and global warming is taking its toll but then I also see people who are still choosing to be blissfully ignorant to all the above. I see a world that will not last much longer as we are fuelling is with hatred rather than compassion and love.

So sometimes when people tell me:

“You control your own happiness!”

Just know that is truly not the case. I am one of those people, I think we all are or have been at some point. The first step is noticing that there are changes to be made.

The Great Depression.

My life is currently a literal binary opposition as the one listed above. But, it has driven me to the point where the only form of enjoyment I currently get out of life is writing, even then I barely have the energy to do that. Not because I am an athlete (I was! Not anymore), or even because I have a chronically busy schedule.

It is because I am going through an episode of depression! Lately, it has been extremely hard to actually learn that- it is nobodies fault: including my own.

So I thought maybe some others could relate with my cynical, sarcastic thoughts which whirl around my headspace 24/7.

It is extremely funny to be honest, how each and every person I speak to tries to humour me with a pathetic quote about life- which usually offers minimal comfort whatsoever. Yes I am sixteen.

I am aware I “haven’t lived yet”.

No, I don’t just “need to get out more”. 

It is literally like everyone thinks that life is MEANT to be kind to everyone, it isn’t. But again, that is okay.

Nobody sets out a plan for you, you are quite literally completely out of control of whatever happens to you. However, to be quite frank though- that doesn’t seem to bother me as much as people who genuinely believe that I can change what happens to me. I think it’s time people start to accept the fact, some people are going to be depressed. That is okay too, but what isn’t okay is telling people that they aren’t.

I am totally not saying: life is out of your control, so don’t bother.

What I am saying is that: no matter how much you plan, prepare or work for something- sometimes things won’t go your way. And accepting that is probably one of the hardest lessons I have been faced with.

The literal only thing I can control is my attitude, and lately that doesn’t seem to be going well at all.

I am a teenager. It is hard enough to control the raging hormones and constant mood swings I have tweaking my mood, without the constant atomic bombs life seems to be dropping at me lately.

I cannot tell you the amount of times I disgust myself, crying that life is unfair while there are many people SO much worse off than I am. But I can’t help it. I wish I could, honestly. This world is full of people who need help so desperately, but lately my mood seems to plummet- which isn’t much help for anyone is it?

So I figured maybe there are people who can relate to me, my feelings and my thoughts. And just maybe there are people who can benefit from them.

I am going to let you have an insight to my journey- all of it: the past, the present, the hopes for the future and each milestone I achieve (however small). Not only to help myself, but to give some hope for others too.

Teenage years are the most bittersweet years you will ever experience, they help shape you into the person you are today and most importantly: the person you will be. 

So here it is. My blog.